Late Night Tidbids.......

Not the late night tidbits you're thinking of, guufawww guufaawww!!!!!

Just a few little thoughts from today. Notes to be noted that kind of thing. I have had a busy, busy day, not the kind of ordinary day when you get up and know there's lots to do but instead the kind of day when you know everyone is depending on you and if you forget the teeniest detail it's gonna be a cluster!!!!!

So with hands and arms tingling from a weeny little panic attack I decide the only thing to do it make a to do list and stick the hell to it.  Tell myself consciously, focus on this and then get to the next thing, keep focusing, don't be distracted, complete this task, cross it off and move on.  My Oh My what a freaking stroke of genius, who in the heck invented the to do list and who said "stick to it, my dear, stick to it!".  For some reason all through my life I have never been a note taker, I always rely on my memory and until now it's been OK. There have been slip ups here and there, like forgetting to tell someone some life saving fact here or there, but hey, we all forget stuff sometimes right... no biggie. You apologize, move on, tomorrow is another day.

But this, this is different,  this is for the kids, this is for the kids who don't have anything, the kids who will smile the broadest smiles, get the most out of the things we do, be able to have a glimpse of "normal" or "joy" when we give them glasses, provide a clinic, let them play in a safe park with safe equipment.  This is for all those kids that someone else gave up on, so that they can read a book from a library we provided or watch an educational DVD that they're school didn't have before. Maybe there is a kid out there without a winter jacket or a pair of shoes suitable for school, if so then, by God, we will make a difference and see that they are provided with such basic things!

This is the kind of day when you make every effort to use the talents God gave you.  You step up to the plate and give it all you've got. Yes I had a sitter take care of my kids tonight, they had a ball, and no I don't feel guilty because they know what I am trying do for others, I teach them along the way hoping that one day they will  follow in my footsteps and join an organization (hopefully this one!) and do something to change the lives of others. Just ask them, they know all about Cowboy Ball and Bargain Bazaar and fund raisers and giving of time, Syd hugged me tonight telling me how she knows we have a lovely family and we're blessed. Bless HER heart for realizing that at eight years old.

So here I am , I've done all I can do today and will get up early (that's the worst part for me!) and carry on tomorrow, I'll do more, I will succeed in making this fundraiser the best it can possibly be in these times. If it's not the best we've ever had then it won't be from lack of effort.  I know I have posted about this a lot lately but it's kinda taking over my life, the deeper I get into it the more I feel for the kids we're trying to help.  I spent some time reading to the girls before bed tonight and we shared some Graham crackers and milk, the kids I'm helping don't have those luxuries. That's it. They just don't.....think about it.