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Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Sometimes its the little things that break your heart....

We all know its the little things that count, a smile, a joke,a look or some small gesture of kindness. Our hearts are warmed and spirits are lifted reminding us of the joys of life.

But what about those tiny things that can break our hearts and crush our spirits in a nano second? This morning I had one of those moments. After struggling with six and a half year old Ash to get herself ready for school we finally bundled into the car and drove in silence to school. It was freezing out and the fields were covered in frost. When we pulled up at the drop off we looked at each other, both of us sorry for a fussy morning. She hopped out and gave me a tiny half smile and a wave and walked off. Her hair kinda messy, wearing a sweater but no jacket and one shoe untied. I felt the tears pricking my eyes, burning as I faught them back, I wanted to park the truck and go fetch her up and hide us both at home, snuggle with her and tell her I love her so much. I wanted to make her look presentable and tie her shoe, I wanted to go back in time thirty minutes and insist on the jacket on this cold morning.
This lesson in consequences will hopefully not have to be repeated because I can't stand to teach it again, it breaks my heart.
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6 comments:

Char said...

sometimes teaching consequences hurt. and sometimes i'm reminded what hell i must have been on my own momma...and i regret it.

(hugs)

Coffeypot said...

We have all had those days as parents. When it happend to me, I'd just drink myself into oblivon and hope I came too in time to pick her up.:)

Brian Miller said...

aww...((hugs)) yeah sometimes its not fun...

Nama Halacy's Comfy Cottage said...

I know it is such a struggle and there will be many more, but just remember that those tiny moments and the emotions they bring are what makes you a good parent.

likeschocolate said...

I know it is so hard to teach these lesson, but if we don't the consequences become only greater. I have been there and I am sure there will be many more moments like these.

mama-face said...

Ah. So so true. It is amazing how our children can effect our emotions so immediately... happy or sad.