But what about those tiny things that can break our hearts and crush our spirits in a nano second? This morning I had one of those moments. After struggling with six and a half year old Ash to get herself ready for school we finally bundled into the car and drove in silence to school. It was freezing out and the fields were covered in frost. When we pulled up at the drop off we looked at each other, both of us sorry for a fussy morning. She hopped out and gave me a tiny half smile and a wave and walked off. Her hair kinda messy, wearing a sweater but no jacket and one shoe untied. I felt the tears pricking my eyes, burning as I faught them back, I wanted to park the truck and go fetch her up and hide us both at home, snuggle with her and tell her I love her so much. I wanted to make her look presentable and tie her shoe, I wanted to go back in time thirty minutes and insist on the jacket on this cold morning.
This lesson in consequences will hopefully not have to be repeated because I can't stand to teach it again, it breaks my heart.
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