Monday, January 31, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
I have been following Cherry Woodburn and decided to sign up for her five week course on how to banish the negativity, stop aspiring to perfection and be the best me I can possibly be. So when Ash presented a cup half empty attitude this morning I had to step back and wonder if I had been her shining example of negative thinking!! Urgh!!! That’s when I remembered Cherry’s teachings and turned my morning around. I chose not to lecture Ash about the positive, that will have to come later when we talk about how her day went and don’t worry I won’t really lecture.. we’ll just have some positive reassurance going on. I chose to be the example… to get ready happily and move forward with the morning, and by God it worked… choosing to release those heavy effin’ doubts is like a little hit of happiness and having an invisible harness hoisting you up in the air to meet the sky, to swing in the sunshine.
Is this getting too shiny happy for ya? Well it should. I then decided I would purposely stop on the way to work and get some pictures of the countryside. This morning was a glorious day to do it, it was seriously cold last night and all along the road were pretty fields covered in white, sparkly frost just like a Christmas card, remember, the ones you used to just buy in a pack and send out before we became obsessed with family portraits and goofy kids? Anyhoodles, here was my thought pattern, I will drive to the cow field and get out and take some pictures. I will do this, I won’t care if there are other cars on the road and they think I’m a freak, this is my first objective of the day, to get a picture, second objective, to move on and get to work. And I did it. And then the farmer lady caught me. And then I felt silly, but she was really nice and we had a little interaction and she didn’t have a shotgun!!!!! I couldn’t help wondering what the heck she thought I was gonna do there in a cow field with a camera and my mock croc loafers obviously not dressed for mid-week cattle rustling. Giggles.
So I bid her good morning and got in the Jeep kinda happy with myself for doing what I have wanted to do for a long time. Then it got the better of me, I had to stop again and grab another snap of this beautiful morning, this time I went off the beaten path a little. I got out and started snapping away at a random fence and frost covered weeds and suddenly the silence was broken… by howling coyotes!!!! What the Eff… they sound pissed, hungry and close!!!! Just one more snap before me and the Nikon hop back in the safe enclosure of my rugged Commander and finally head in the direction of the office.
I could just imagine it, it would be weeks before anyone found me out there in the wilderness, frozen to death with Nikon in hand after being half eaten by a pack of hungry wolves… what would the neighbors say!!!!
So, upon reflection maybe I should throw myself to the wolves more often, it was a lot more fun than just getting in the car, dropping the kids off and getting to work on time, uneventful and boring. All that wonderful country side I want to share just passed by each morning because I’m too chicken to stop and take pictures. That my friends is getting out of my comfort zone… which by the way it soo over talked about these days… but I feel great, invigorated, empowered. It’s taken me a while to admit that wandering around with a camera at my face is actually what I’m most afraid of but it’s the one thing I really want to do; share my surroundings, my visions, my perspective.
Here’s an adaptation of Marianne Williamson’s quote which Cherry shared this morning on her site.
“My deepest fear is not that I’m inadequate. My deepest fear is that I am powerful beyond measure. It is my light, not my darkness that most frightens me. Who am I to be brilliant, successful, talented, fabulous? Actually, who am I not to be? I am a child of God/Universe. My playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around me. As I let my own light shine, I unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As I’m liberated from my own fear, my presence automatically liberates others.”
How will you liberate yourself today?
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
There's something so wonderful about cooking a meal, sharing a culinary experience over a glass or two of wine and then relaxing without interruption. His Gorgeousness and I have completely different ideas and approaches to cooking so it's usually an interesting hour or so when we decide to tackle something new together in the kitchen. He's more of a follow the instructions kinda guy and me... well not so much. We drive each other nuts with the banter and playful arguments as to how we should get to the glorious end result, he doesn't understand the bit of this and bit of that approach and I don't understand why he has to be so stubborn about preheating the oven!!!!!!! I guess you can tell a lot about a person if you get the opportunity to cook with them before you go any further into the relationship. Everyone should do it before they commit; I mean what if you were to marry a guy you'd never cooked with, and then after the nuptials you get to that moment when the inevitable happens and someone whispers those three little words "what's for dinner?"... and you each discover that the other is a ..... culinary virgin!!! Never has cooked a proper nutritious meal for another human being and heating a Chinese take away the next morning in the microwave does not count!!!!
Does a man look for that Iron Chef quality in a woman and does he do it consciously? Does he tell himself when he sees that hottie across the room "man she looks fierce and I bet she cooks a mean Chicken n Dumplins". Or would it go something like this, he meets a girl, gets to know her and really likes the way things are going then discovers she can't cook... would he dump her or overlook that particular shortcoming and go for it anyway. Best scenario would be that at least one of the two would be a fantastic cook and agree to be the major chef in the union, leaving the other free to use a different skill set in another area of the domestic playing field such as laundry or gardening. And lets reverse the situation, is it always the girl who should be the cook? I know plenty of lucky ladies who have their significant others rattling pots and pans on a regular basis because he's the stronger of the two in that department. These days it's so hard to provide a decent meal and it's becoming more of an effort to find fresh, un-monkeyed with food that appeals to all the family. If you happen to have a talent in that area you are blessed my friend... blessed.
Anyway... getting back to the Big Man and myself in the kitchen, I happen to think we approach cooking as we do the rest of our lives together. We blend our skills, we share our ideas and we work as a team. It's irritating at time to see him carefully measure out a teaspoon when I would just eyeball it and I'm sure it drives him crazy when I take a short cut but as long as we reach the desired end result we're both happy and we can relax and enjoy the process. I'm working on my marriage, I'm consciously committing to being a better partner to my husband. It's taken me a long time to get to this point, it really has, we have never had a time where either of us wanted to totally throw in the towel but there are definitely highs and lows. Recently I came to the realization that only by spending intentional time together will be regain the excitement of the pre-kid years. Going to a restaurant and sitting opposite each other isn't the answer for us... there's nothing there to stimulate conversation and we're probably not going to engage in animated story telling because we're surrounded by others so we, my friends, are opting for the more hands on approach to dates. Like cooking in the kitchen for a start. We work well as a team and bonding over a little project is our little personal recipe for success, I truly enjoyed our stay-date on Friday and I'm looking forward to a few more. Who knows maybe we'll go all "Ghost" on you and get Sydney's potters wheel out one night!!! or maybe not.
And in other news... my camera is still injured and I haven't yet found a Nikon Hospital close to home, however, I could not pass up the opportunity to snap these little fella's the other day. Cute huh???? I used my little Kodak and although it felt kinda weird I like the result. Yay.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
It's five 'til twelve am. What's happened so far? I woke up to the sound of rain outside, that's not so bad but today is a holiday and I thought it may be a good time to go off wandering around South GA taking pictures with the girls in tow. Nix that idea, camera is broken anyway. Then I remembered my appointment to have my teeth cleaned at the dentist. Well it's not my favorite pastime but what the heck, let's go get it over with. Heavens to Betsy what in the name of all that is Good could this woman find rewarding about scraping my effin' skull and attacking me with ice picks until the room is covered in blood and guts??? She's supposed to be cleaning my teeth and giving me a winning smile, not performing an autopsy on my brain from the gum line up. She even made the comment "this is torture right?" yeah it is and when we're done here I'm gonna slap you with a restraining order the size of Texas!!!! The physical torture complete they move me out to the reception for more monkeying, this time in the form of mental aggravation over the filing of insurance and the fact that I need to get a root canal done before my next appointment. I just can't believe my luck on this shitty Monday morning in what was supposed to be a shiny, happy New Year! It's the seventeenth day, there are three hundred and forty eight to go... they better shape up into something better or this miserable bitch is gonna blow!!!
Moving on.... yesterday I managed to drop my camera, could this be the fundamental source of my doom and gloom today? It was my fault completely although Syd was the one who actually did the dropping. I left it on the counter top and she opened the dishwasher and caught the strap thus hurling it onto the tile floor with some force, bouncing against the dishwasher on the way down. Fuck. I picked it up and checked it out, it seemed to be OK until a little later when we went out to try and do what was supposed to be a really cool picture, the auto-focus is SHOT!!! SHOT ya hear me!!! I have tried it with two lenses and it's not playing ball. I don't know enough to understand the technicalities of all this, the lens has the auto focus switch on it but it appears it must be the camera that's not working because it won't auto focus with the lens that was not dropped either. It will work on manual focus but who the hell wants to manually focus every time??? not me. I can't express how I feel right now, totally defeated and frustrated, that's just the tip of the iceberg. I'm the kind of person who has to know how things work, I need to be in charge of the damn camera and be able to find the fix. I know I can't, but the control freak in me wants to, I want to discover that I've flipped a switch somewhere that's causing the problem and that if I can only find it I will have my precious Nikon back in working order and all will be well again. But will it? I'm in a funk about everything really. I'm just in a really horrible miserable place and can't seem to get off my ass and make it better. How does one do that?
Why does everything have to boil down to a choice? Impossible choices, the answers are obvious and yet the inner child wants to kick and scream and throw a tantrum. I don't want to use hard earned cash on dentistry I want to use it on a camera. I want to be in the position to pay for both. I can't stand that every time I feel like I may be ahead I go to the damn doc or the dentist and they suck me dry!!!! Stop it already!!!!!
And finally... as if all that's not enough, I came home ready to flop in the couch and feel completely sorry for myself; negative....one of the effin' dogs decided that throwing up on the cushion might be a good idea. Thanks for that man's best friend!!!!!!!
Post over. You'll find me in the fetus position on my bed, hopefully there's a marathon of Intervention or something cheery like that to keep my spirits up.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
all the while dancing an elbowy and kneesy kinda square dance....
His Gorgeousness pointed out it could have been a lot worse!
You gotta love that Ash.
could easily enhance with PS and add a little glint in the eye.. but there
ain't no movin' that trash can unless you go for a close crop and chop the
elbows off... urggghhhhhhhhh!!!
Always check your background... always check your background
and by the power of Picnik.......(just did a quickie enhance)
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Absolute treatyness. Hersheys makes them here in the States under licence from Nestlé in Switzerland....OK that's why they are so good,right up there with Toblerone....which is now made by Kraft Foods...not as exotic as being made by Suchard as it was previously. I wonder if it's as crazy fantastic as I remember?
These chocolate greats hold some warm fuzzy memories for me, visions of the playground and the school tuckshop in the seventies and later the ulitmate score whilst on the cross Channel ferry to France and Belgium. It just wasn't a ferry ride without scoring the biggest Toblerones you can imagine....bigger than a tonker toy! My eldest sister could hoard a Toblerone for ions, taking just a piece at a time and carefully rewrapping the bar until she felt the need for the honey almond goodness again. Super effin' annoying to a choccy guzzler like moi.....however....I have since learned the art of savouring the chocmoments and now I too frustrate the hell out of family members who lack the choc patience. All very amusing!
That particular sister also made cheesecakes occasionally..random memory from about thirty or so years ago! And as I check out the interweb I find that there is infact a number of recipes for Toblerone Cheesecake.....imagine....the scrumptiousness of the base and the sweet filling all mixed with a white chocolate Toblerone! How has it taken me forty plus years to discover this? I wonder if there' such a thing as a Rolo Cheesecake......please God let it be so!
Kindly stop drooling on my blog.....here is my promise to myself, I'm going to try the toblerone cheesecake and seek out a rolo recipe then keep them under lock and key in the fridge tormenting everyone with my will power of steel...bbwwwaaaahahahahaha this just in.... check out Natalieskillercuisine.com.....sigh!! and she takes pictures....and likes Lady GaGa......in short...she rocks!
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Monday, January 3, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
How's your New Year treating you so far? broken your resolutions yet? nope me neither. I have set myself a couple of goals and my first is to work on the white balance of my pictures. Each month I'll pick a new technique or trick that I can learn from fellow photogs and run with it. I am still involved with the Blog Camp group on flickr and will be posting a picture weekly to their group. Not as exhausting as my picture a day project and, if approached in an organised manner, I'm sure I can complete the challenge.
Unfortunately I didn't manage to complete either of my big challenges last year... I wanted to take a picture a day and write a novel. Well I may have one chapter done of the novel but that's it. I just don't have it in me. I like the comfort of the mish mash of a blog really, no forward thinking and planning involved. Just put down my thoughts for the day, show off my pics and I'm done. As for the picture a day challenge, well I don't know where I went wrong with that one... not so much that I didn't take a pic every day but I was rubbish at organizing and cataloging them which irritated me greatly!!!
In other news.... I have started a new project and have a new website... not ready to totally reveal it yet. Still a little shy and have some more tweaks and preparations to take care of before i let you in on it. I'm going to be really busy this year, however, if I can carry on as started it'll be a breeze. As long as my support group (his gorgeouness) manages to keep up with the chores I sneakily make him do it will leave me time for bloggin' and photography and all the yummy fun stuff I like to do. Don't tell him but I managed to get some hidden camera footage of him vacuuming the floor the other day and I sent it to my closest friends with a message that read... "Happy New Year to Me!!". Hoorah!!!!
And finally.... I had the best time on New Years Eve with two of my closest online friends, one whom I have never even met in the flesh. Through the marvels of technology I chatted with Bambi and wished her a Happy Birthday. Then later that evening I wished Spudbaloo a Happy New Year and felt all warm and fuzzy as our exchange continued into 2011. I love my virtual BFF's!!!!!!
Au revior mes ami's ...... talk atchya later.
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